To worry or worry not

I work a corporate day job. It’s a good job, decently paid, good people to work with. As far as feeling comfortable at a place of employment, I’d say yes…and yet sometimes very stressful. All in all, I could go on in life and that would be just fine except, I’m an artist.

Any creative person that has a passion knows what that means in relation to working a 9-5 for “the man”, confined…in a cube. I would love to scream my bloody, freakin’ head off.

With that being said, my husband and I were blessed to go on a recent week’s vacation to Maui. Did I say much needed? Yes, much needed if only for my sanity. Most of the time when on vacation I have trouble staying “in the now” as my sweetheart says. This makes it difficult to enjoy my time. Though this time was different and I was really, really able to relax – until the Sunday night before I have to go back to work. I get the “Sunday Blues”.

The Sunday Blues are feelings of the butterflies in the stomach - only not the good kind. They mean that I don’t get to be my artist self all day long like I can on the weekends. Creating and just being. They mean feelings of unfilled dreams, fear, longing for my time to come and wondering if it will ever happen. But there was something special that happened that evening.

I’m a faithful person – or try to be. I pray for whatever is needed for others and myself, hopefully not being greedy and it’s coming from an earnest place. In the weeks prior, I had been praying for a big sign to know I’m heard (I don’t always notice the little ones – I need one big knock on the head sometimes!), that I just wish I could be doing what I have such a passion for and just to release all those anxieties.

My sweetheart and I were discussing those very things while driving home and he says “I want you to do what that car in front of you says”. I looked up and on the license plate it said “Worry not”.

What?!? Oh – my – God…..there was my sign!! Call it what you want, but all I know is, that when I am feeling doubtful about my life and where it is going, I remember this event, this light, this night and I feel just a little more faithful.